to the only boy in the family..

salam

this entry is specially dedicated to

mohd nor aizat, my beloved brother

u was born 1992, december

being the only boy in the family

we taught u r going to be spoiled

time kecik2, mat sangat manja ngan mama

xle renggang lansung

and u r so ccuuuttteee!!!

still remember u and ur power rangers stuff!

as being the only boy

u have 2 big baskets full of toys!

still remember u and ur 'kain kale kuning'

sarung bantai kan?

haha! suka sangat sebelom tidoq mesti nak bau dulu

then hisap jari..hehehe...

masa nak masuk tadika,

abah n mama nk hntar g sekolah cina

tapi biasalah..u dun want to..

then sekolah rendah

then menengah..

i am sorry for not being a good sister to you

when i was back home

akak slalu marah mat..kan?kan?

i admit that

i used to be a hot tempered-girl back then

ingat lagi when i ashamed myself in front of yon @ KI

akak minta maaf..

well my dear brother

ur life so far just being revolved in alor setar

now it is the time for u to see the real world

i mean..even it's only in changlun

u still have to take care of urself

u have to do everything on ur own

as this going to be ur first time ever

being away from family for 17 years..

hmm..semua adik2 akak dah besaq kan?

its time for everyone to have a taste of what life without parent is

it never gonna taste sweeter of course

so take a good care of yourself

u know how much family put hope on you

even there's so many time u not able to make it

we will never give up to always count on you

there's must be a reason why

Allah puts u as the only men in the family except from abah

i want you to learn what life is..

akak nak mat rajin

rajin belajar

rajin solat

rajin baca al-quran

rajin berdoa

be a good muslim

as then u will be a good person to everybody

pilih kawan elok2

friends that will guide you

u never know how hard life out there

please choose ur fren wisely..please.

if mat ada masalah

feel free to message me

number phone akak kat sini x berubah

always call mama abah every weekend

buat macam kak ija..

keep in touch with everybody

be strong, be wise

we all love you

and we are so proud 

to have you in the family

i know u can do it this time!

this is a second chance for you to strive hard

goodluck my BIG brother..

u have a long way to go now

ni time raya bertahun lalu

mat and kak ati

 

take care~

keepfighting!

LIFE IS...

salam..
(sebelum baca, i recommend utk tekan 'play'
kt music player  sebelah kiri anda)

it's been a while since the exam has over

i'm waiting if i am going to be called for the oral

if i'm not, wish for the best

that i am not fail..so mean, i've passed

today..nak ckp psal life..

after a year being staying away from castlewhite

i've learned so many things about life

life is not always good as u thought it will be

it could be harsh on you..nice on you..

but, there will always be something in ur life

that make u become a miserable person

bila kita tengok somebody

kita rasa dia hepi

life seems really good for them

kita rasa, kita yg byk problem..

people say, seeing is believing..

yeah, it happens sometimes..but not all the time..

u will never know what a person hold in side them

what secrets they been hiding

what life they have been avoiding

what next secret, sinful steps they will be taking

no one knows..

people comes with many problems..

is life created to be filled with problems?

and we as human is the problem-solver?

how about if someone could not handle the problem

then are they gonna be another problem?

arrggghhhh....

hidup..memang mengajar erti kekuatan

x sangka, rupanya masih ramai yang tercari2 makna hidup ini

masih mencari reason to wake up every morning

reason why to take every steps u had,have,and will take

reason to take medicine???

i wish those people will stay strong

personally, i respected them as they have been so strong

until the day that i knew how life has been going on for them

i won't say it cruel..but..jus not being nice..

above all, i can see the problem rise from the parent themselves

the kids could be spoiled, be proud with

dear mummy and daddy all over the world

please give ur child the love they need

being a parent is not just by fulfilling ur kids physical's need

talk to them, loved them..

make them feel like they have a place to hold on to

have a place that they could spill their emotion

family is what everyone has

and someone might only have..

life is so unpredictable

u dunno what ahead, waiting for you

all i can say is

pray for the best

that's why prophet Muhammad SAW PBUH said

' “Rebutlah lima perkara sebelum datangnya lima perkara. 

Pertama, masa sihat sebelum sakit. 

Kedua, masa kaya sebelum datangnya masa sempit (miskin). 

Ketiga, masa lapang sebelum tiba masa sibuk.

Keempat, masa muda sebelum datang masa tua, dan 

kelima, masa hidup sebelum tiba masa mati.”

(Riwayat al-Hakim dan al-Baihaqi

semoga Allah merahmati dan memudahkan urusan kita semua

kepada mereka yang berkenaan

moga kesabaran anda

bakal mendapat ganjaran setimpal dari Allah

keepfighting!

isu lakaran wajah Rasulullah

salam a'laik

mungkin ramai di antara anda yg tahu akan isu ini

ini bukanlah satu isu baru

namun rasanya baru pertama kali

hal ini dilakukan oleh lebih ramai pihak

di medium yg digunakan umum..

there's few pandangan yang saya lihat

antaranya ialah

memboikot penggunaan facebook

sepertimana yang terjadi di Pakistan

di mana mereka telah 'shutdown' access to FB n utube

there is certain view yg membantah

atas alasan tindakan tersebut tidak efisyen

(tindakan memboikot)

tidak mampu meninggalkan kesan

dan seperti melepaskan batuk ditangga

kerana lepas tue, layan balik FB dan utube

ada juga tindakan

membuat petisyen supaya aktiviti tersebut(melukis)

dihentikan

pada pendapat ana

apa salahnya untuk kita bersuara

jika hanya medium itu yang kita mampu

kalau kita nak tunggu

kebebasan bersuara makhluk Allah sperti mereka itu

di sekat..alamatnya sampai bila?

bagi saya

kita bertindak mengikut kapasiti kita

kalau rasa sain petisyen dan 'puasa' FB je yg mampu

buat la yang mampu itu

daripada senyap sunyi sahaja

wpun ada pihak mengatakan

'senyap x bermaksud kalah'

mungkin sukar utk memahamkan

orang2 yg x faham Islam

utk terangkan kenapa gambar

Rasulullah, Allah, nabi, malaikat

tidak harus dipotretkan

tapi kita perlu tunjukkan keseriusan kita

dalam menangani isu ini

walaupun suara kita hanya didengar sebelah telinga

apepun

ini pandangan peribadi ana

klo ada nk komen, silalah..

p/s:esok exam lagi satu~

keepfighting!

something wrong

sumthing wrong with my bloglist!

i lost everyhting..

nanti la betulkan..

maaf ye!

tak perlu tunggu tua..

salam to all..

been so busy with exams..

today i wanted to reflect things that had happened

alhamdulillah

aku syukur, hingga saat ini,

aku masih bernafas,

terus menghirup udara keimanan

merasa hangatnya bayu dakwah

aku syukur

pemberian Allah yang tak ternilai

sejak aku mulai menjejak kaki ke bumi asing ini

bak kata classmate dr USA selepas exam td

'the college is over for the year'

hmmm..subhanallah..

terlalu cepat masa berlalu

first year...second year..third year...

terlalu pantas

bila muhasabah kembali 

aku risau, jika masa itu

aku tak gunakan sepatutnya..

penuh dengan kelekaan..keseronokkan

lupa..lupa tentang matlamat hidup sebenar diri ini

terfikir juga tentang nikmat dan rahmat 

masa,umur,kesihatan,wang...

adakah aku gunakan sebaiknya?

umur bukan pengukur waktu utk buat pahala

tak perlu tunggu tua baru nak beribadah

kerana belum pasti hari tua itu milik anda..

subhanallah

alhamdulillah

allahuakbar

apalah yang bakal aku jawab di depan Allah nnti

cukup kah dengan jawapan

'aku study lillahi ta'ala?'

hmm..mungkin..

tp bila balance dengan dosa yg di buat

lambatkan solat, buang masa..

mengumpat..buruk sangka..

subhanallah

mungkin pahala itu hilang sekelip mata..

ya Allah

aku mohon diberkati umurku

berkatilah aku, keluarga ku, sahabatku, guruku

ingatkanlah kami disaat kami terleka

dunia hanya sementara

akhirat penentu segalanya

ya Allah

tetapkanlah hati hamba mu ini

kekal di atas jalan yg lurus

jalan yang Engkau janjikan

usah biarkan aku hanyut

pegang aku dengan tali Mu

agar aku tidak mudah terlepas

akan sentiasa aku kukuhkan ikatan itu

moga dalam hitungan

terhitung setiap pengorbanan..

ya Allah

akan ku kejar syurgaMu..

akan ku kejar syurgaMu..

i love u

my almighty Allah

sukan dan aku~ demam piala thomas~

salam..

aku dan sukan??

sebenarnya, saya ni bukan la mantop pun dlm 

bidang kesukanan nie

main netball je..tu pun x terer!heheee

x caya tnya la azie..kan?kan?

azie terer r..terer gila!hoho!

tp my fam mmg gila minat sukan..

maksudnye bukan suka bersukan

minat tengok je!

hehee!!

especially yg melibatkan kedah dan msia!

kami x main la EPL nie..

kecuali adik laki yg minat MU

yg lain die hard fan kedah je~

best bila ada live bola or apa2 je psai msia

mesti rmai2 nak tgk!

pastu rmai2 cuak n rmai sokong!bessttt!!!

bising satu rumah! even my mum pun join~

bestnyeee...

so skrg kan piala thomas..

wpun seriusly saya x rasa cm cerah sgt peluang

tp boleh la nk letak 10% harapan 

respect r dkt lee chong wei!

dia sgt konsisten!!

susah nk jumpa pemain konsisten nie..

shalin zulkifli , nicol david..

ngan chong wei je yg nmpak okies..

so, xle r nk ltak hrpan..

nnti diriku kecewa!hohoh

apa pun saya doakan yg terbaik utk anda

hope to see the match after CP exam

hohoh...stad stad!

baiklah, saya akan sambung stad ye!

p/s : smalam rajin plak dok melihat MU asian tour lwn ngan msia.

dok tgk gol amri yahya..haha! wish i was there.. 

and really wish it just a draw..

komen skit psai penonton boo kat beregu negara..

mengikut tertib, xperlu boo orang

penat oo dia main! 

tp tuela, if main pun cm x nak lawan

bengang gak kan?kan?

kena pndai kawal emosi ye kwan2..

ok2, saya stud!!

jom!

keepfighting!

behavior change

today, i've read about the

TRANSTHEORETICAL MODEL

wah..dasyat x bunyi nye??

model nie digunakan utk tolong org2 yg ade prob

untuk mereka berubah

behavioral change!

stage dia ada 5! 

tp kali nie nk ckp yg mna quote best2 je

1)precontemplation

ni tahap xnak berubah apa2

'people stay in precontemplation stage as long

as they need to or maybe even forever!'

klo ajak2 tp dia xnak

as Twelve Steppers says

'let go and let God'

2) contemplation

ni ada smgt n kesedaran n berubah

'no matter how small;

baby steps are the key to lasting behaviours'

3)action

mulakan perubahan

tp mungkin dia akan relapse sebab

'primacy is stronger dan decency ;

the first thing we learn in stronger and more deeply

etched in our brain than the last thing we learn'

4)relapse

'reward works better than punishment'

sekian dahulu untuk sesi 

behavioural science hari ini

keepfighting!

saina : prefect, bahas, geng kedai mamak?? semua itu kenangan terindah!

mode: exam patho

salam semua

hari nie nk bercerita bingkisan kenangan

sepanjang hidup di sekolah tersayang

sekolah menengah sains pokok sena

batch fortress 0105

a)early life

as u might know already, i have twin

msa dpt tawaran ke sbp

xpuas hati gila dia dpt SSP (time tu kt kolam ayer lg)

kenape la aku yg aktif nak mampos ni

dpt  kedah je??tertekan!

namun mmg sebaik2 rancangan itu

datangnya dari Allah~

saya ni tersangat la homesick

tak dan seminit nangis

nangis n nangis..

time tu bru tau kata 

'aku nie x la strong mana pun!hehe!'

b) bff

well, i guess everyone has  one right?

saya pun

we used to hang out together and tup2 kira bff la!

me, iytah,barni,alin n fetty

4 of us end up being prefect and one was a librarian

(time tu ada je org kata kami ni pilih geng)

zaman sekolah..lawak2..

my happiest moments

a) prefect board

i never gonna have a better memory in saina

if it was not because all of the fortress prefect!

u all really made my days..

sayang sgt korang..

even time exam ke apa ke,

mesti pulun nk meeting

meeting la pasai apa pun

sebab miss to meet everyone!

rindu gila all the girls..

ingat x org kata geng ungu asyik dgn ungu je?

hehehee...time tue mmg menguji kebersatuan kita kan?

love u all girls..

boys plak, sgt suka r keja ngan depa

with ucu yg sgt berkaliber!

time meeting, atuk, alwi, oney

mesti slalu la ngan lawak depa..suka!

hilang stress!

tp time buat lawak, make sure away pada wan elmy ok!

heheee...u know why right?heee

well, prefect board mmg byk keja, tp sgt njoy!

mcm2 motivasi kita handle..

hmm..paling xle ingat waktu handle motivasi 

dekat teluk bahang

time tue dh nak xm, tp x ingat 

knapa kita xle reject request kem tue

maka kita pun jadila fasi..

bw la bertimbun2 buku

stay up la konon dlm hutan tu!haha!

ingat lg, atok ngan spec pecahnye

time exam dia ngan paper xm tue mcm nk melekat je

punya la x nmpak!haaa

tp, last2 result boys semua gempak

ucu, atok..hebat!

kami girls plak yg terkontang kanting!heee..

time tu gak ada 'kisah'

yang dimulakan dgn azie

yang membatalkan malam burung hantu kita..

hhheeeehhhooooo

ganti ngan night walk yg sgt best!

jumpa kura2 n tgk spora yg cantik!glow in d dark!

miss cikgu murni!

sebut psai cikgu, time niela

cikgu zurinah jumpa suaminya!

sweetttttt!!!

n ingant lagi cmne sir azhar plan

utk tarik alwi, mad ali,oney jadi prefect

bukan senang! 

time nie suma nk nyayi..haha!

the MT

byk sgt cerita if nak cerita psai prefect board nie

tp..memori itu yg kuat d ingatan

i miss all of you!!

korang doing good kan skrg?

all the best in ur life k!

time skolah menengah

iyfah nie dilabel sbgai geng 'gelap' r..

geng ada kedai mamak!huhuuuu..

dibawah naungan pak aq..

penebar roti canai izkar

amik order aku ngan someh..hahaa!

still ingat time lalu kelas mana ntah time form 5

ada org kata

'weh, tgk tue, ada tudung 'terbang'!'

maksudnye, depa x nmpak la tuan dia~GELAP!!

hohoooo!!

pnah time tu wat announcement dkt dlm kelas form 5

tiba2 ada org ckp..

'ehh..jap2..aku dgr sora orang, tp dr mana ek??'

time tu satu kelas tue gelak!adus~

mula2 mmg sakit hati..tp lama2..

layan je!

next is my most favourite moment too!!

being in the school debate team

well, nama saina dlm dunia perbahasan nie

mmg telah kukuh sejak dari kemenangan zaman syamsul qamar

start masuk debate time tingkatan 2

sekali dengan nizam

before that ada uji bakat

oleh cikgu rashid n bro afiq

time rehat depa wat announcement sapa yg layak

x dgr pun my name d announce

tp tiba2 semua org congrate kan saya

cm pelik!

pastu baru tau kata dpt..

bahas mmg di pandang tinggi kat saina

harapan sekolah sangat2!

so, being in the team mmg satu challenge r..

team time tue ada

farhan nor diana,zuljalal arif,afiq,akran

then tambah sharizan bila 2004

time 2003 clash dgn netball menyebabkan

saya x join UIA interschool debate

time 2004 mula bakat digilap

best gila masa dkt UIA

team senior ada an, zul, sharizan

junior me, nizam, maizun

selalu la compete sapa dpt pembahans terbaik!

we manage to go until octofinal masa tu

senior team smpai ke semi final

time nie di serap masuk ke team PPM saina

PPM 2004 buat dekat perlis

we managed to get to final

masa final dekat PICC, we won

saat yg sgt bahagia

selepas seminggu berkampung di SAS,putrajaya

time final, saina hantar 3 bas penyokong

my bff datang!heheee

wpun i x lawan pun (reserve je)

tp mmg terasa penat lelah tu terbayar!

satu...

dua

tiga!

tgk sir iqbal!!

empat!

alhamdulillah..we won!

2005 did not bring so much luck to us

we lost our coach, cikgu rashid 

as he furthered his study for a year

but after that 

saina managed to win again

i guess 2006 n 2007

2008 final tp kalah rasanya..

last but not least

fortress has lost 2 of it beloved members

they are 

azmir syazwan n afif asyraf

both holding red n green flag

i never realised that them both a house leader

al fatihah kawan~

well u know what

life really have leave marks on ur memories

leave a meaningful stories..

however ur life state is

just being nice to it..

dun blame to much on other thing..

Allah ada plan baik punya utk anda..

and always do the best in whatever u r doing

no matter how people hate u

condemn you

as long as u know what u r doing

correct in the way of syara' n social

it is fine to keep on with~

never give up on life..

you might not discover your path yet

keep on searching!

to all my frens..

iyfah doakan..dimana korang berada

be wise, always ingat Allah

be a good person to others..

insyaAllah, we will meet again somehow!

p/s : all pictures were taken from FB. credit to the owner!thanks

keepfigthing!

semua2 Allah tolong~

subhanallah

besar kan kuasa Allah tue

we never appreciate them

like really2 appreciate them!

hmmm......

btoila kata2 Allah

nikmat yg manakah yg kau dustakan

hmm...

subhanallah..

moga Allah tetapkan hatiku dan hatimu

tetapkanlah kami di jalan Mu ini

berkatilah hidup kami

redhakanlah kami

dekatkan lah hati-hati ini

dengan hatiMu..

I ALWAYS NEED YOUR HELP YA ALLAH

SUBHANALLAH

ALHAMDULILLAH

LAILAHA ILLALLAH

ALLAHU AKBAR

keepfigthing

s90 or lumix lx3??

salam to all

hari nie nak bercakap psai benda

yg memeningkan kepala i yg serabut nie

bukan psai exam..tp pasai..

nak beli kamera baru!!

1)suka n minat

well, i am a big fan of beautiful n superb pictures!!

sgt suka tgk gmba2 slr yg cun lg lawa itu

so, last year, dgn otak yg x terer bab kamera

p beli camera with high MP

time tu ingt gmba ble jadi lg lawa r konon!heee~

2)ciri2 kamera idaman

mestilah nak yg compact

x nak sebesar gedabak dslr tue

so kini sy konpius utk memilih etiher

canon s90 or panasonic lx3

dua2 ada features ala2 slr la 

3)pendapat

so if sapa2 terer utk bg pendapat mana yg ok

sila la komen ye

really need ur advise

this is panasonic lx3

this is canon s90

p/s:saya suka gmba lawa

especially yg ble tunjuk high contrast bila tgkp

gmba warna warni

can shoot better bila low light

cth mcm dlm bilik or time mendung

has better shutter speed~

haha! banyaknye..

tp saya x nak dslr

sekian terima kasih!

keepfighting!